One thing to learn the hard way is: you have to own your crap. What you do, what you say, who you hurt; you have to own all of it.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011

A Beautiful Disaster Indeed

Truth to be told, I'd conclude it this way.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

The Wingtip Passing Over

I could have watched 'Up in the Air' but someone would not let me so. Sentimental and award winning sort of movies always excite me better than feasting on Korean food. I used to dream about gathering with all the people I adore who are either faraway or forever busy and feasting on Korean royal delicacies like those in the drama series 'Dae Jang Geum'. You must be amazed at the fact that I'm pretty good at fooling with fantasies. Can't help it. I don't watch porn so I need to exercise the thinking skills.

Talk about crapping. I'm supposed to just share a quote with you before I head off to bed. The main character Ryan Bingham says this in a voice-over when he observes an airplane taking off, letting off his luggage:

'Tonight most people will be welcomed home by jumping dogs and squealing kids. Their spouses will ask about their day. Tonight they'll sleep. The stars will wheel forth from their daytime hiding places, and one of those lights, slightly brighter than the rest, will be my wingtip passing over.'

I always tell people 'youth' is my asset. Being young means I won't have to worry about longing for companionship at the moment. But I just can't deny there is this fear of being lonely when everyone else will be happily struggling with commitments while I'll very likely still wonder if permanence comes with commitments. Do I even have a choice?

Somehow, it saddens me to see the old folks' face glowing when they talk about my nieces and nephews.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I Was

They told me I've lost the 'coolness' upon laughing at the way I ran after the basketball. I thought that's good news. I meet these people once in a blue moon to remind myself of who I was. People change but it's a matter of for the good or worse. When I was 'cool' back then, I thought I was very good. I didn't mind fighting with people of authority and experience because I watched too much of American reality shows. As if 'personality' sells. Duh. What makes you shine is how hard you work and having good contacts. So today I bow when I have to. I yell at idiots when I need to. Glad to learn that I've grown so much emotionally. There is no longer this void that constantly yearns to be filled. Please, I want year 2011 to be an awesome one. Expecting abundance of fun and humble achievements. And to keep in tighter contact with friends.

Thanks, old folks, for giving me the world. =)

'There are always flowers for those who want to see them.' Henry Matisse

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I'm effing bored, aight?!

Sometimes all you want is to be left alone. To defend yourself looks more like you're covering up a certain ugly truth. So why not just shut up and watch the show, no? Some fuglymoronicauntie keeps stalking me on Twitter and thinks whatever I bitch there has to do with her pathetic life. Darn. What's with people these days? And I thought I'm stupid enough to even have a blog here.

I'm holidaying yet again. If there's one reason I hate the holidays it's because all the nonsense starts eating up my head and I'll start making up dramas for myself. What kind of dramas you're wondering? Even fighting with my beloved sister over the menu in a seafood restaurant counts, for goodness sake! Yes, I'm this childish, mind you~ You see, me and the family are for sambal sotong but the little bitch just won't let her taste buds flirt with spicy dishes. Damn I love democracy because the evil majority wins and I was amused to watch her sobbing. Hahaha! That's why I enjoy going to the theatres sometimes to watch others' misery. Blek.

Oh yes, about democracy. Talked to a stranger on MSN once about the democratic system being the reason of destruction of justice in our beloved Bolehland. I have no statistics or quotations from relevant sources to support this argument but you just gotta sit back, relax and let the bitch here do the simple lecture. Democracy is for a society that is intellectually developed enough. Bolehland is too segregated to agree on a same direction. You have one group of apes that yell for special treatment, rights and privileges and another pack of dogs that is for meritocracy. The truth is all these are happening because we get to vote for what we like. When these people are voted into the legislative chamber, they can't get into an agreement which pleases all of us. While they say the majority which consists of the apes are fairly happy with the economical policy which favours them, a distinctive large portion of the people, the dogs are uber fuming all the time. We won't be surprised if something like the May 13 tragedy will repeat some day. So this friend of mine suggested we need someone like Lee Kuan Yew to right all these ridiculous wrongs. Sadly, the closest person to be as powerful as LKY was our honorable Tun M. Enough said about Tun M. We all know how his political ideology is beneficial for mostly the apes and many of the projects introduced during his time are killing us by present. Oh boy. We need a LKY desperately because no matter how fairly the electoral system is going to be conducted, Bolehland will still go down to drain with all the social encumbrances. :(

Shit. I haven't written anything about politics for so darn long!!